Debriefing

Everything about today has made me frustrated. Frustrated, tired, angry...angry. The problem is, I don't know who to tell except for myself. I know it's silly to blog this and pretend that I'm miserable....but really, I am kind of miserable and I have no one else to listen. I feel so pathetic. I don't remember falling asleep last night. I remember being in so much physical pain and being completely awake until my roommate woke me up this morning when she had to go to class. I am suprised I am still moving with as little sleep as I think I got. I have two exams this morning, which I guess isn't really the problem, except that I don't feel rested at all which makes me not look forward to them. Everytime I try to look at something, my eyes hurt from the exhertment. It's quite silly. This morning during adventure games, we were blindfolded and I got pulled into someone's shoulder, hard, so I have a fairly sore spot on my face. I hope it doesn't bruise or swell...that's the last thing I need. I guess the real reason I am writing this all to myself is because as silly as it sounds, I needed to tell someone, and I had no clue who I could get to listen. I feel bad...because I definitely do complain to my friends sometimes and then I find myself really reluctant to continue asking them to listen since they already have. I feel like I'm whining. I guess I am. I guess it's okay as long as I'm the only person who has to read it. Perfect.

Time to Deconstruct

mood: useless

I barely understand how I'm feeling right now. Every time I see a girl on campus with long, blonde hair, it's Miranda.

Everything else I really want to talk about is something I'm not allowed to say. I feel like I shouldn't keep talking about it. But I want to cry, constantly

It's midterms and I feel so alone and purposeless now that I'm done for the week. Work really may be the only thing that gets me through.

I hate being so fucking dramatic.

Currently Reading: Oryx and Crake